Sufganyot
That cocky half-grin Half-grimace Present joy tempered by the need to be perceived as aloof You were always too aloof But in this moment the gleam in your eyes Iridescent Smudges of flour dot your face Silly chef’s hat askew on your head Strong hands Sinewy Kneading the dough Lift and fold Press and mold […]
a tear-stained nightmaredream
A raging emptiness carves a path of devastationFingers outstretchedTightly clinging to empty nothingnessDesperateGaspingGrasping at prior promises of serenityWrenching notion that… For a momentInhaleTry desperately to hold, but shaky breath escapesNo room for both airAnd the all-encompasing devotionTo occupy my lungs at the same time Just for a momentInhaleThe scent of you flooding my sensesThe taste […]
Sickly Sweet
Yearning An inexplicable pull from Somewhere above my stomach And below the aching cavity in my chest My heart thudding erratically My lungs forgetting to expand Until I suddenly draw gasping breaths Fingers shaking Sweat-glistened palms Clenched into tight fists Desperate to hide How deeply my desire for you consumes me I reach out Arms […]
Always second best
Bottle of cheap whiskey sitting on my desk Ruminations of how I got to this point Screaming into my pillow because I’m dead inside Screaming into my pillow because I’m too old to punch walls Screaming because this has built inside of me for so long And I don’t know how to let it out […]
Two days
Lump of breath catching in my chest and it hurts It hurts to breathe and it hurts to think It hurts to know that what we’ve shared is almost over It hurts to look at you and see what I’m missing in my life Blurry vision as tears streak down my cheeks And you don’t […]
Pathetic
Wrapped up in each other beneath the sheets But every night you have to leave And every time you walk away you steal another part of me You never stay Because he’s coming back in two weeks And I’m weak But every time you walk away and I’m left holding your warm spot on the […]
I dream of you
In the time between laying my head down to rest And the yearning pull of blissful unconscious I dream of you Your features are vague outlines of the combinations of people I’ve loved But I know it’s you I dream of being on a porch and swinging on a bench I built for the sole […]
Fading memory of perfection
Rich dark chocolate, illuminated by the tears in your eyesA gentle breeze blowing a few stray strands of hair across your faceA sole street lamp above throws long shadows all around usThe only thing on my mind is the salty sweet taste of your lipsThe feel of my calloused hand softly caressing your neckHeart pounding […]
She
She smells like drunken three AM philosophical conversations Sitting on the grass Pants wet from the not-quite-dawn-yet dew Like the aroma of iced-tea on a hot day Sweat rolling down tense necks Sweet ice cold salvation quenching parched lips She smells unassuming Like a quiet confidence reflected in the fire of her eyes The reek […]
The damn timing’s just never right
Fingers clenching tense shaking mind racing A thousand thoughts intruding on each other Chest hollow Fluttering heart erratic panicky feeling driving Stakes of anxiety muscles taut Cracking knuckles sinking flailing Gasping for air inhaling failure like bitter remedies Glazed eyes unseeing galaxies of unbidden futures All imagined in escapist daydreams Crushing hunched shoulders Achy neck […]