The Never-Ending Nightmare
It was October. Days started out with a chill, the previous day’s heat having snaked away overnight. Dew-stained ground and the sharp scent of rural air assaulted my nose as I slowly made my way through the field beside my house. Two dogs wandered purposefully ahead of me, straining at their leashes, noses buried in […]
Big boys don’t cry
You’re age five and fall off your bike and scrape your knee so you start to cry. And mommy says, “Suck it up, big boys don’t cry.“ You’re age six and hyperactive and sent to a mental institution for kids. You’re scared and alone and afraid of the dark and want to go home. You […]
Temptation
Tick-tock Tick-tock The second hand on the clock ticking away Tick-tock Tick-tock Seconds blur into minutes blur into hours Tick-tock Tick-tock The seconds counting down, the only sound aside from harsh breathing Shaking, a sick feeling bares down like the weight of their expectations Stirring, reaching blindly for another taste of freedom Tick-tock Tick-tock Ragged […]
Always second best
Bottle of cheap whiskey sitting on my desk Ruminations of how I got to this point Screaming into my pillow because I’m dead inside Screaming into my pillow because I’m too old to punch walls Screaming because this has built inside of me for so long And I don’t know how to let it out […]
Two days
Lump of breath catching in my chest and it hurts It hurts to breathe and it hurts to think It hurts to know that what we’ve shared is almost over It hurts to look at you and see what I’m missing in my life Blurry vision as tears streak down my cheeks And you don’t […]
Pathetic
Wrapped up in each other beneath the sheets But every night you have to leave And every time you walk away you steal another part of me You never stay Because he’s coming back in two weeks And I’m weak But every time you walk away and I’m left holding your warm spot on the […]
A typical morning
“BRRIIIIIIIIIIIIINGGGG. BRRIIIIIIIIIIIING. BRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIING.” The shrill scream blaring from the speaker on Sophia’s phone jolts her to consciousness. Always the same sound, always the same reaction. Gasping for breath from the sheer dump of adrenaline that always accompanies the experience of being screamed awake, she reaches blindly to her side and grasps the phone. She squeezes […]
Precipice
Wearily trudging up the last flight of stairs to the top floor, I lean against the wall beside the door, hurriedly wiping my tears so my roommate won’t see them. After taking a deep, shuddering breath, I unlock the door and step inside. I barely glance at him as my make my way to the […]