Hard to love the world
Shattered glass strewn haphazard in dusty piles of lost opportunitiesKneeling amidst the wreckage Scraped knees, hunched shouldersUnseeing eyes staring blankly, unfocused, half-closedThe audible sound of pounding heartThump thumpThumpThump thumpInterspersed with ragged breathing Each inhale shorter than the one beforeEach exhale accompanied by watery gasps A keening, half-sobHalf-resigned sighReach down to pick up a larger piece […]
Always second best
Bottle of cheap whiskey sitting on my desk Ruminations of how I got to this point Screaming into my pillow because I’m dead inside Screaming into my pillow because I’m too old to punch walls Screaming because this has built inside of me for so long And I don’t know how to let it out […]
Two days
Lump of breath catching in my chest and it hurts It hurts to breathe and it hurts to think It hurts to know that what we’ve shared is almost over It hurts to look at you and see what I’m missing in my life Blurry vision as tears streak down my cheeks And you don’t […]
Pathetic
Wrapped up in each other beneath the sheets But every night you have to leave And every time you walk away you steal another part of me You never stay Because he’s coming back in two weeks And I’m weak But every time you walk away and I’m left holding your warm spot on the […]
My love affair with books
Six days after my eleventh birthday, I was shuffled into a van by a social worker for the state of New York and brought to what would be my home for the next two years, one month, and eleven days. Located in (relatively) upstate NY, Mount Pleasant Cottage School is a residential treatment center that […]