Pathetic
Wrapped up in each other beneath the sheets But every night you have to leave And every time you walk away you steal another part of me You never stay Because he’s coming back in two weeks And I’m weak But every time you walk away and I’m left holding your warm spot on the […]
My love affair with books
Six days after my eleventh birthday, I was shuffled into a van by a social worker for the state of New York and brought to what would be my home for the next two years, one month, and eleven days. Located in (relatively) upstate NY, Mount Pleasant Cottage School is a residential treatment center that […]
I dream of you
In the time between laying my head down to rest And the yearning pull of blissful unconscious I dream of you Your features are vague outlines of the combinations of people I’ve loved But I know it’s you I dream of being on a porch and swinging on a bench I built for the sole […]
You’ve changed
They say to me “you’ve changed” What an asinine thing to say Did you expect me to remain the same after being shattered day after day? Disappointment clouds the windows of my soul And holds back what I’ve got inside from showing the world Invest every ounce of my being in hopes and goals And […]
Fading memory of perfection
Rich dark chocolate, illuminated by the tears in your eyesA gentle breeze blowing a few stray strands of hair across your faceA sole street lamp above throws long shadows all around usThe only thing on my mind is the salty sweet taste of your lipsThe feel of my calloused hand softly caressing your neckHeart pounding […]
More than a noun
What do you do?What do you mean? I do a lot of things.Yeah but when you introduce yourself to someone you say, “Hi, I…”“Hi, I like to write.”Oh cool you’re a writer?Sometimes.Well what about the rest of the time?I dunno, I like to read a lot too. Ok but what’s your job?Like, what do I […]
Quitter
Disappointment etches and designs the lines of my mindAs I sit here thinking back on a better timeBecause it seems to meThat I’m living each day in fantasyAnd it would appear to beThat’s I’m just living on borrowed timeIt reminds me of a smile in the back of my memoryWhen I could just hold you […]
A typical morning
“BRRIIIIIIIIIIIIINGGGG. BRRIIIIIIIIIIIING. BRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIING.” The shrill scream blaring from the speaker on Sophia’s phone jolts her to consciousness. Always the same sound, always the same reaction. Gasping for breath from the sheer dump of adrenaline that always accompanies the experience of being screamed awake, she reaches blindly to her side and grasps the phone. She squeezes […]
Precipice
Wearily trudging up the last flight of stairs to the top floor, I lean against the wall beside the door, hurriedly wiping my tears so my roommate won’t see them. After taking a deep, shuddering breath, I unlock the door and step inside. I barely glance at him as my make my way to the […]
Dear Johnnie
At the time of this writing, I was 98 days sober. The week prior my therapist encouraged me to write a goodbye letter to alcohol. I was encouraged to write like alcohol was a person. I ended up writing to Johnnie Walker, because red label was my drink of choice. It ended up coming out […]